Sometimes it’s hard to keep focused when there is so much sadness in your head

For me, this is probably one of the hardest weeks of the year. Not because everyone else is busy, happy and excited about their Christmas break ( or maybe stressed as hell and doing a good job to cover it up ), but because I vividly remember this week, three years ago. This was to have been the night we celebrated Rosie’s Birthday.She had chosen for the five of us to have dinner at Sam’s Brasserie in Chiswick .Now I feel physically sick if I hear the name of that restaurant .