While Jacob goes fell-running in Yorkshire and Florence takes the steep ,hair-pin bend drive to Tusheti , John and I will take Emerald onto the cliff-top at Eype and then spend 4 days looking for things we’ve packed away safely .
Ben Goldsmith’s tweet after the sudden death of his 15year old daughter, Iris ,who died in a crash on the family’s farm in Somerset, last Monday July 8.
”God, please can I have my beautiful, brilliant, kind little girl back, please God. And if not, please take extra special care of her. I love her so so much and I’m so proud of her. It hurts me so much I can’t describe.”
It’s hard to write about a wedding without sounding cheesy- but Natalie and Thomas’s was a joy .
I could say loads more , beautiful bridesmaids ( Florence was one !) , the love was in the air , we were thoroughly spoilt with food , music , drink , bon jovi or homie ( or something like that ) , our table was brill – great conversations , Right Rev Georgie C. did them proud .It was fabulous .
But still I see Rosie dancing on the decking in that lovely free way , so I preferred to do my pathetic jigging on the grass .
I received a gift today from my art-room volunteer . KA is lovely , she used to be a student at the school and now comes back two days a week to help keep the art-room in order . Last week she went on her annual holiday to Bognor . This morning I was told to close my eyes and promise not to cry as she gave me my gift . I opened them to find a candle with the words
‘ 40 – you are starting a new phase in your life .You have self-confidence and are very attractive.You are in the full bloom of life and working hard for a wonderful , secure future. Just like this candle ,you glow with warmth and light ”
Considering I’m 61 and resemble a washed out old rag , that’s not bad going .
I guess it beats last year’s gift which was a mug with the inscription ‘5 days working with you twats , 2 days of bliss’ !
Now Darren is back from his amazing cycle across Kenya , he has chosen some beautiful and very moving photos of Rosie …
Her 18th Birthday party ,2007, our kitchen , with Helen on her left .
On The Staten Island Ferry , NYC , 2007, with Tim on her right ( I loved it when she wore her hair up )
Worthing seafront , around 1992. We had taken Grandpa down to Gifford House , an ex servicepersons respite care home , and we went on to have a fabulous day .
This is odd that Darren chose this photo as 2 weeks ago today ,John and I went to Worthing and had lunch in Crabshack . We walked along the front , up the pier , popped into the amusements and got hooked on the machine where you roll 2p down a shoot and a machine edges the coins forward . We must have spent a good half an hour in there as I was determined to get the £5 note that was teetering on the edge . I never got it and I finally relented and when a young child and her father took over my space , I even told them my tactics !
Anyway , while strolling , I talked about the very day that photograph was taken . It is a really strong memory . I remembered Geoffrey being anxious , me being more anxious and not wanting to show it , Joan feeling guilty as we drove off with him , although his stay was only for 2 weeks and he was doing her head in . Then ,once he was safely in situ , we hit the seafront and the mini funfair , and everyone was happy *.
Sadly , the last photo , I’m not sure about – it looks like she is dressed up for something – a nursery school play perhaps ?
Happy days , so beautiful , like my other children , she doesn’t know how loved she is .
Of course you know it’s not the worst thing that can happen , but , when you wake up and your new fridge has packed in and …
you have 6 people for supper
3 italians arriving tomorrow ( for 2 weeks )
Jacob, Florence and Simon arriving on thursday for a week or so
You’re working flat-out and full-time as it’s the busiest school week of the year , when we host our immersive , multi-sited ,sensory story as part of The West London Inclusive Arts Festival .
It’s parent’s evening on Thursday
and your head hurts a bit after a works do last night ..
what do you do ……?
Ditch the coffee and be the first one in Currys at 9am
The government are to introduce a children’s funeral fund next month, ensuring no parent will have to pay for their child’s burial or cremation .
grim topic/wrong order/ so sad / and all the other stuff you’ve heard me say before
‘Killing Eve’ – loved it , especially the scene in The Rijks ( and trying to spot any bars we’ve been to ) .
I also have to admit to having trouser envy *
Thanks to Stormzy for bigging up Thornton Heath with a “Oi Glasto, it’s the only the fu**ing beginning,”
I’m not sure if he ever frequented…..
Brigstock Manor ( Grandma’s old people’s home )
Thornton Heath Baths – home to Enterprise Swimming Club – where I spent every Friday night from the age 5- 12
Drive thro Macdonalds at Thornton Heath Pond , where Grandma and I would go most Thursdays – at the age of 88 she’d have the Happy Meal and hand the toy to to the nearest kid .
The RHM offices , where I filed flour orders
Croydon school of Gymnastics – I never went there either ,just walked past it a lot on the way to Delly’s Caribbean Cuisine
Sudden death , someone young , wrong order , unimaginable grief .
And then I read something which has become my new mantra ” perhaps the best thing we can do , is to come to terms with the fact that we’ll never come to terms with it”